Donde Estás Lyrics in English by Ivan Cornejo
Portal is a fascinating word that means 'portal' or 'gateway'. You don't often hear a sci-fi-esque word like this in a sad love song!
Ivan Cornejo sings, "No sé en dónde encontrar el portal que me llevaba a ti" (I don't know where to find the portal that took me to you). He uses it metaphorically to describe the lost connection to his love, as if he needs to find a magical passage to get back to her, highlighting the immense distance and desperation he feels.
Ivan Cornejo is completely stuck on an ex in "Donde Estás", and he is not handling it with cool detachment. Instead, he turns off his lights, locks his door, and shuts down his phone just so he can close his eyes and daydream about her ("Ya apagué mi celular / Y ya cerré mis ojos pa' verte otra vez" [I already turned off my phone / And I already closed my eyes to see you again]). He even dreams about filming her dancing, only to wake up annoyed and frustrated. The breakup has him trying everything to move on: he goes on dates with other people, but nobody measures up ("Salí con varias, ninguna te alcanza" [I went out with several girls, none of them compare to you]), and he even signs up for therapy ("Hasta empecé unas clases de terapia" [I even started therapy classes]).
Naturally, the healthy coping mechanisms get tossed aside the moment drinking starts. The more bottles he opens, the louder his feelings get and the more he wants to drive off looking for her. He gets openly mad about the sudden rejection, asking where on earth she got the idea that she stopped loving him ("¿De dónde te salió que ya no me quieras a mí?" [Where did you get the idea that you don't love me anymore?]). He uses the blunt, colloquial verb "encabrono" in "A veces me desespero y encabrono porque no estás" [Sometimes I get desperate and pissed off because you're not here], which shows he is not just sad, he is genuinely furious at the absence. By the end, he realizes he is driving aimlessly without an address to find her at, so he finally calls it quits and wishes her well wherever she might be.
