I remember you were there when I was down
When arrhythmias didn't make me smile or live
I was drowning in your eyes in a blue ocean
And it's strange but I love you even if today we don't fuck anymore
I have a life of excesses chasing each other
Sex and alcohol, damn gambling
When I lose control I don't know how to get it back
Yes, and the worse it gets, the more I talk about it
And it's strange I don't feel alone
Only when you and I are alone
And I'm afraid to let you go
Because I already know you won't come back
I never told you, all this hurts me
Fake everything when we are alone at home
I never told you and you don't know how much it hurts me
Knowing that you and I won't be my future
You still remember it one night that seems like an hour, an hour
Which seems like a second, a second lasts forever
Kissing with our hearts in our throats, fucking until seven
Think only of us, because the rest doesn't count for anything, whatever
I wish everything was like this, yes, as it was before
But now it's late and I know I'll have to be without you
I never told you, all this hurts me, it hurts me
Fake everything when we are alone at home
I never told you and you don't know how much it hurts me
Knowing that you and I won't be my future