I apologize to everybody who's absent
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But I don't care about you anymore
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my drawings on a rock
when I didn't understand myself
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It's a laughing slice of moon
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about this birthday in February
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about what I already knew
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I'm counting failed caresses
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so that huge wounds can close
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And I ask God every day
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even just one tiny story
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So I close my eyes and then I see
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the chapters of an ancient book
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and I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know the words
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but you teach me to really count
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I still hadn't learned to run at your age
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but when my dad looked at me proud
I smiled like you do with me
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I'm counting failed caresses
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so that huge wounds can close
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And I ask God every day
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even just one tiny story
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So I close my eyes and then I see
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the chapters of an ancient book
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and I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know the words
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but you teach me to really count
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my boldest agony
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that I was dying but nobody dies here
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I'm counting failed caresses
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so that huge wounds can close
_____
And I ask God every day
_____
even just one tiny story
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So I close my eyes and then I see
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the chapters of an ancient book
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and I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know the words
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but you teach me to really count