It's true I lived like I had nothing left to lose
Always the same mistakes and the same old song
Always the same fears I smothered in the night
Please let it rain so I can stay in bed
I lived like I knew this wouldn't last long
I wanted to be old, yeah, but I couldn't picture it anymore
It's weird to think I probably had it all wrong
It's hard to say but in my heart it's never pretty
My God, tell me what I'm doing here
Too often I wonder why me
I hope, my God, you'll forgive me
This world is crazy, my God, and you know it better than me
Nothing ever taught me how to find happiness
I spent a lifetime chasing a little peace inside the pain
From everything that burned me, all I had to carry
It's not that easy, you know, but they say it's gonna be alright
When I think back today, I tell myself it was simple
I just had to love myself but it was so hard
So I looked in others for what I should've given myself
And since things have to change, this time I won't give up on me
My God, tell me what I'm doing here
Too often I wonder why me
I hope, my God, you'll forgive me
This world is crazy, my God, and you know it better than me
My God, tell me what I'm doing here
Too often I wonder why me
I hope, my God, you'll forgive me
This world is crazy, my God, and you know it better than me
So that's it, that's what hurting feels like
I thought I was strong but now I know
That the dull noise of silence in the end
Creates wounds that never heal
In this room that heard everything
The days went by and nothing had flavor anymore
We don't explain the misunderstandings
We just close our eyes and hang on
My God, tell me what I'm doing here
Too often I wonder why me
I hope, my God, you'll forgive me
This world is crazy, my God, and you know it better than me
My God, tell me what I'm doing here
Too often I wonder why me
I hope, my God, you'll forgive me
This world is crazy, my God, but you know it better than me