When through too much lucidity
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And opposing feelings
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I'll end up turning away
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From my secondary lives
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When through too much loyalty
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To the uprootings that shaped me
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I'll manage to detach myself
From everything that undoes me
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When I no longer find the strength
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To say yes to mean no
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To tamper with my shell
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When I go change scenery
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It won't be a deathly silence
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We don't choose that road
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But you can't smother a flame like that
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We don't choose that feeling
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Of having a departure deep inside
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Because a father because a mother
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Because every hand brushed
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Before anything has begun
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Because not made for studies
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Because not made for families
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And not made for habits
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Because there's surely a place
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To gather all my brains
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I'm that woman and that man
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There are thousands in my skin
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The further I go the less I know
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The more I find the less I've found
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But the more I forget the more I remember
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That losing also belongs to us
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We don't choose that road
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But you can't smother a flame like that
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We don't choose that feeling
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Of having a departure deep inside
To be at the heart and on the side
Ahead of time and outdated
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A trust to recover