I don't live by the instructions anymore
I hope everything I know leaves me
And they're mine, the lies they told me are mine
Good and evil are just fantasies
I don't even want a reason to live anymore
A God, a love, a limit and I want to suffer too
But not for what's in my head, but because I'm alive
And reality is a piece of furniture with a thousand corners
I bang my bruises on it, but it makes me laugh
But it doesn't scare me anymore
I'm not even looking for the truth anymore
At the cost of not, at the cost of never deluding myself again
My eyes are swollen from my disenchantment
What's left of me? What's left of me?
My eyes are swollen from my disenchantment
According to God, I was born from a rib
But he doesn't know he was born from my fear
If I were Eve, I would've swallowed the core too
Along with the whole apple, with the seeds
I want to be light without staying
on the surface, like sea level
I just hope that my heaviness
isn't mistaken for my depth
I never speak without saying stupid things
I like, you know, f*cking with myself too
To brag about how I f*ck
To still feel like a beginner in front of you
I don't want to plan, to think about what to do
To give meaning to pain and not go through it
To be overcome by emotions, to know your secrets
I want to make beautiful everything I let into my eyes
But it doesn't scare me anymore
I'm not even looking for the truth anymore
At the cost of not, at the cost of never deluding myself again
My eyes are swollen from my disenchantment
What's left of me? What's left of me?
My eyes are swollen from my disenchantment
Everyone has a path and I don't