I don't know who I'm lying to
When it's obvious I still miss him, that I still have feelings
Lately I'm going out more, but I don't have fun
It's because I'm pretending
I don't know who I'm lying to
Uploading stories as if I were having the time of my life
But everyone who knows me well knows I'm faking it
If you see him, tell him I'm fine
That I've never been better
That I've already gotten over him
Even though he knows I haven't
If you see him, tell him I healed
That I finally forgot him
If you see him, don't tell him I still cry for him
I'm still nursing the wound from the abandonment
That I just want to be alone, that I don't fall in love
That I can't love anymore, but that I adore him
I don't want him to realize
That I still struggle with the control he had over me
He already made his life and I'm still stuck here
Why don't I trust anyone they introduce me to?
Sometimes I miss seeing him, but that's not right
I have to let him go, it's a dependency
He left me reduced to nothing
If you see him, tell him I'm fine
That I've never been better
That I've already gotten over him
Even though he knows I haven't
If you see him, tell him I healed
That I finally forgot him