I've often talked about it without talking about it, I just skimmed the subject
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I was too ashamed to say how I built myself an isolated world
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Isolated from everything, from family tables
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From happy meet-ups I didn't wanna go through
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I was scared to show others that I don't know how to feed myself
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Better to let myself die
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If I eat, if I eat, I'm going to hell
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If I eat, if I eat, I'm going to hell
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Does it bother you
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I've often talked about it without talking about it
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I didn't wanna put words on it, no
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Telling you it's an illness
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Is telling you who I really am
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I've gulped, blasted, devoured
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Stuffed myself with that huge emptiness
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And to say it's about food
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I just wanna fill my belly
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If I eat, if I eat, I'm going to hell
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Some people it bothers
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If I eat, if I eat, I'm going to hell
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Does it bother you
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Does it bother you
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If I talk to you about it today
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It's 'cause I've stepped back
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'Cause I feel I've kinda come out of that strange bubble
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I think I've understood the why and how
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Even if it's never over, this time it's different
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'Cause I've told you everything
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If I eat, if I eat, it's not hell
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If I eat, if I eat, maybe it's heaven even
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If I eat, if I eat, it's not hell