A microphone, a handshake with blood between our fingers
I feel the imprint of a carved cross
With boiling oil on my forehead
A bastard soul, a blind conviction
A refuge, a glance, a search for attention
Teetering between deep hate and redemption
I chose the bliss of eternal damnation
Hey you know I wasted too much time
Who knows if you’ve found it again
Some say branded, some say stained
The only indelible thing is a fixed fate
You looked for comfort in a twisted man
But fate is mocking and breath is already short
For us there’s no cure, no medicine
If I still feel lonely when you’re close to me
Conscience dry-cleans with an ice-cold shower of blood
I’m so lost I can’t find myself anymore
Nothing comes from nothing, I’m sure of it
My ambition has far outgrown my talent
If I could erase all evil I’d drink it like absinthe
And so many times I wanted to scream
But I stayed silent
Thinking about the things I lost
Imagining it was different
I haven’t looked at myself in the mirror for months
It’s been a while I suspect that inside the reflection
There’s that mask they put on me
Like an alien trying to get home
I aim at the stars and I’m halfway there
As a kid I was happy when it snowed
Now it blocks traffic, ruins the day
In the middle of a crowd of cheering voices
Having a radar and hearing only that lonely one that slanders
Fame then has neither use nor weight
When you watch the one you love leave in an ambulance
So I said sorry to the sky
While the nurse stuck the tubes into her arms
And I prayed God take the money, my bike and my career
But don’t take my girl away
And in a single instant truly get what matters
Realize in time that nobody lives forever
When it’s Sunday at home hungover
Instead of going to visit grandma
Now I miss that sweet life
I bitterly regret it, because
When you run to win you don’t see what you lose
Your mom calls the office, you answer
Between those way ahead and those who show up late
Anyway nobody’s on time
I wanna cut the rope more than I wanna cut the finish line
If I could erase all evil I’d drink it like absinthe
And so many times I wanted to scream
But I stayed silent
Thinking about the things I lost
Imagining it was different
I haven’t looked at myself in the mirror for months
It’s been a while I suspect that inside the reflection
There’s that mask they put on me
We fly away if the wind blows strong
More precious than a diamond that
Turns into light when it’s night outside
I turn into light if it’s night outside