I'm tired of trying to convince myself
Finding explanations for what I did
In July, I became someone else
That's what you always say
I called it revenge, payback, anger
I did it because I wanted to
That, otherwise, I'd disappear
I apologized when I shouldn't have
In fact, I wanted and could've done more
I should've done more
You should know, betrayals are way more subtle
Look, my love, I just wanted to be happy
It was loyal from one port to another
I just wanted to live a little
Like you did, like you did
And I wanted to know, yeah
That, otherwise, I'd disappear