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But for a while I forgot everything
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I feel the anesthetic sleep's effect slowly fading
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The pain resurfaces, the drawer's missing a good painkiller
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And my heart burns 'cause I never told you how much I loved you
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For what you did, for how you fought windmills
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With the strength of your heart made of concrete
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Tiger in the jungle of scattered thoughts
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You couldn't tell me how much you hated
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Not being able to get up in the morning to make me that f*cking coffee
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Because all I'm left with is one question
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Gunpowder in a single shot to fire into my head
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If I look beyond the clouds I find no reason
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If I look in the mirror I see you
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If I look in the mirror I see you
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If I look in the mirror
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I wanna run to Milan to have the wind slice my face
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If I still haven't processed your loss it's 'cause my metabolism's slow
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But what's the point of somatizing if I still wanna cry
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If at night I wake up with a demon's hand on my neck
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That steals my breath, I fight back with my self-control
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With my patience, I hope it's just another dream
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With the strength you gave me I get up and go to the bathroom
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I take a deep breath, for a bit I accept it
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Then I replay your heart in my chest
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I clutch the memory in my eyes in a sea of tears
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Because all I'm left with is one question
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Gunpowder in a single shot to fire into my head
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If I look beyond the clouds I find no reason
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If I look in the mirror I see you
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If I look in the mirror I see you
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If I look in the mirror
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Everyone talks and claims they understand
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How I feel, they know what to say
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That's life, you can't do anything about it
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Just as it begins it'll also end
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You focus on the details, trust time and you won't go wrong
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And while it slowly stitches me up I stay awake but turn off the light
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Because all I'm left with is one question
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Gunpowder in a single shot to fire into my head
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If I look beyond the clouds I find no reason
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If I look in the mirror I see you
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If I look in the mirror I see you
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If I look in the mirror I see you