But for a while I forgot everything
I feel the anesthetic sleep's effect slowly fading
The pain resurfaces, the drawer's missing a good painkiller
And my heart burns 'cause I never told you how much I loved you
For what you did, for how you fought windmills
With the strength of your heart made of concrete
Tiger in the jungle of scattered thoughts
You couldn't tell me how much you hated
Not being able to get up in the morning to make me that f*cking coffee
Because all I'm left with is one question
Gunpowder in a single shot to fire into my head
If I look beyond the clouds I find no reason
If I look in the mirror I see you
If I look in the mirror I see you
If I look in the mirror
I wanna run to Milan to have the wind slice my face
If I still haven't processed your loss it's 'cause my metabolism's slow
But what's the point of somatizing if I still wanna cry
If at night I wake up with a demon's hand on my neck
That steals my breath, I fight back with my self-control
With my patience, I hope it's just another dream
With the strength you gave me I get up and go to the bathroom
I take a deep breath, for a bit I accept it
Then I replay your heart in my chest
I clutch the memory in my eyes in a sea of tears
Because all I'm left with is one question
Gunpowder in a single shot to fire into my head
If I look beyond the clouds I find no reason
If I look in the mirror I see you
If I look in the mirror I see you
If I look in the mirror
Everyone talks and claims they understand
How I feel, they know what to say
That's life, you can't do anything about it
Just as it begins it'll also end
You focus on the details, trust time and you won't go wrong
And while it slowly stitches me up I stay awake but turn off the light
Because all I'm left with is one question
Gunpowder in a single shot to fire into my head
If I look beyond the clouds I find no reason
If I look in the mirror I see you
If I look in the mirror I see you
If I look in the mirror I see you