All of us in a circle round the table
Through my eyelids I see the eternal faces
And I've looked for a motive to hate them
But everything that's broken, I caused myself
I'm grateful for my life, and even for my death
And I thank you for what works and myself for the f*ck-ups
And I thank you for the food, thank you for the wine
Even though it's inedible and the glass is too small
Thank you for my future, murky and stained
Thanks for a system that leaks from every side
I'd show I was proud
It's okay you don't fit in with the rest
I'd let you know if I was real
I'd show I was proud
It's okay you don't fit in with the rest
I'd let you know if I was real, for real
I'd love to escape for a moment
But enlightenment always turns out short-lived
Nobody's laughed at my jokes for years
I've been standing with my back against the wall for years
I'm grateful, but also lonely
Are you lonely up there in heaven?
I could tag along sometime if you want
I'd show I was proud
It's okay you don't fit in with the rest
I'd let you know if I was real
I'd show I was proud
It's okay you don't fit in with the rest
I'd let you know if I was real
I'd show I was proud
It's okay you don't fit in with the rest
I'd let you know if I was real
I'd show I was proud
It's okay you don't fit in with the rest
I'd let you know if I was real, for real
I'd pry till you were loose
At least be a little closer
With an attempt at already being happy
Then I'd sit at that table
And then we'd do this together
Why don't we do this together?
I'd let you know if I was real, for real
I'd let you know if I was real, for real