For not opening up enough
They wanna scratch off this bark
And melt all my glaciers
Catch a glimpse of what's hiding behind
This dark and distant gaze
They know the façade hides
A soul weighed down with exhaustion
I stay secret, I admit it
But maybe I've got my reasons
For letting my mouth speak so little
That inside my head the black
Has taken over every color
Or maybe I'm deathly scared
If they knew how many times
I've only wanted death
That I'm weak deep inside
I keep relighting the torch
That I'm just waiting for a sign from God
I keep breathing fire
So I escape into my music
Begging it to push away my fog
So I suffer and keep quiet
What's the point of you knowing
That on my roads I'm lost
I resent the world with all I am
Because it profaned my dreams
Nearly all of them rest in peace
Yeah, I suffer and keep quiet
I don't plan to share them with you
Afraid I'd lose myself in them
But I suffer and keep quiet
I even end up crying sometimes
I've got no shame admitting to you
That I don't know where I stand
I'm a guy way too sensitive
I'm only thirty years old
I tell myself that's something
That I'll dig into the mystery
As I'm still standing, yeah
I play the game of existence
I accept and I bow
I put up little resistance
I don't really know what's coming
We'll see, but I've learned
My sufferings will serve me
Why they hit full force
And why it burns in my gut
Behind each of my smiles
There are a thousand fears
It's been a long time now
That on my roads I'm lost
I'm searching, I'm cornered
My mouth keeps staying closed
But I suffer and keep quiet