The last thing I put was your photo in the suitcase
I leave you everything and a goodbye written on a napkin
And even though things didn't go well, I wanted to stay
I know you don't understand it and neither do I no matter how hard I try
The city without you feels different
It hurts me to see what's coming
If the year has twelve months
Why did I have to choose December
To say goodbye
It's going to be hard for me to survive
Loneliness will be different
And all that's left is to accept that living will hurt
My first Christmas without you
The ones I had I lost in all the battles
I tried to avoid so this day wouldn't come
The city without you feels different
It hurts me to see what's coming
If the year has twelve months
Why did I have to choose December
To say goodbye
It's going to be hard for me to survive
Loneliness will be different
And all that's left is to accept that living will hurt
My first Christmas without you
The last thing I put was your photo in the suitcase