I know that it's never good to show up
That I shouldn't call her
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That it has to seem that I'm fine like this
That I already managed to forget her
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Still I know that it was her decision and I must respect it
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And I must suppress this hope of loving her again
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If I do everything right maybe someday I'll make her cry
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And it's not that I want her to suffer
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It's that I want her not to ignore me
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That even though I did it without guilt
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Maybe my fears beat me
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If I do everything right maybe someday she'll come back and fall in love
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Do everything without mistakes to see if I captivate you
And look for the perfect excuse
So that you know that I'm still alive
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That shows that I still exist
The strategy is the least of it
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I just want to hear your voice
I don't want to keep playing
The ones who decide what I do
The truth is I'm drowning
And not saying that I miss you
And not saying that I love you
Your departure hurts so much
That I beg for anesthesia
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While yours has amnesia
It doesn't remember that night
That we swore to be eternal
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That we were going to give it all to love each other
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In which you still love me
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For that which hurts me so much
Abandonment hurts so much
I gave you everything that you have
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And the more love I give you
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The more you sharpen it and wound me
I don't want to keep playing
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The ones who decide what I do
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The truth is I'm drowning
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By swallowing my words
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And not saying that I miss you
And not saying that I love you
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I've been told that you forgot me and that you're not sad anymore
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That there's someone else and that you don't care anymore
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About what you felt for me one day
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And I don't lose hope and I dream that you lied to them
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And that you use the same strategy that I used when you left
I don't want to keep playing
The ones who decide what I do
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The truth is I'm drowning
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By swallowing my words
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And not saying that I miss you
And not saying that I love you