I know that it's never good to show up
That I shouldn't call her
That it has to seem that I'm fine like this
That I already managed to forget her
Still I know that it was her decision and I must respect it
And I must suppress this hope of loving her again
If I do everything right maybe someday I'll make her cry
And it's not that I want her to suffer
It's that I want her not to ignore me
That even though I did it without guilt
Maybe my fears beat me
If I do everything right maybe someday she'll come back and fall in love
Do everything without mistakes to see if I captivate you
And look for the perfect excuse
So that you know that I'm still alive
That shows that I still exist
The strategy is the least of it
I just want to hear your voice
I don't want to keep playing
The ones who decide what I do
The truth is I'm drowning
And not saying that I miss you
And not saying that I love you
Your departure hurts so much
That I beg for anesthesia
While yours has amnesia
It doesn't remember that night
That we swore to be eternal
That we were going to give it all to love each other
In which you still love me
For that which hurts me so much
Abandonment hurts so much
I gave you everything that you have
And the more love I give you
The more you sharpen it and wound me
I don't want to keep playing
The ones who decide what I do
The truth is I'm drowning
And not saying that I miss you
And not saying that I love you
I've been told that you forgot me and that you're not sad anymore
That there's someone else and that you don't care anymore
About what you felt for me one day
And I don't lose hope and I dream that you lied to them
And that you use the same strategy that I used when you left
I don't want to keep playing
The ones who decide what I do
The truth is I'm drowning
And not saying that I miss you
And not saying that I love you