I've been wanting to be for a while
Or better, be here, be, exist right now
And not just hope to do it
Instead, I link existence
To the violence of a birth
And my skin is a windshield
And my body's no longer a body
It's just taking up space
A plate I leave unfinished
You're distant, get back next to me
Touch my hand with your hand to feel
That it's insanely beautiful
But how many lives do we lose
I wanna bless every part of, every part of me
How come you can't wait to turn around and kill me?
I just wanna free you so I can survive myself
Don't you know the only way you can exist is
Sometimes I suddenly feel pain and notice it
And I cry from emotion, 'cause I'm inside myself
Just to inhabit a skin
I count calories like the minutes still left
Oh my God, I like too many people more than me
As if I, in comparison, were nothing
And I've too many words I can't swallow
Untie these knots 'cause I wanna feel again
That it's insanely beautiful
But how many lives do we lose
I wanna bless every part of, every part of me
How come you can't wait to turn around and kill me?
I just wanna free you so I can survive myself
Don't you know the only way you can exist is